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I think no one will read my blog anymore. My blog is so dead. x)
recently many things happened. I hurt the person that shouldn't be hurt.
I don't know whether she will forgive or not but no matter what I can't say out my feelings because i might hurt her more if i do that.
I'm single now. I have nothing now except family? studies? and some friend? Yeah.
Actually I'm not happy at all, i can't tell anyone about this.
No one can really understand my feelings, only god can understand all the thing.
I admit I've done many wrong things and because of those mistake i decided not to hurt anyone again.
I really hope I can together with you. Honestly, you're the girl that i really want to together with.
I don't know whether I can find a girl like you in my life again or not but I have no choice. I really don't have much choice.
I very suffer now.
Everyday have to act this and do this and do that to make you lost full confident on me.
The feelings really suffer.
I wish i could hold your hand one day and pass those happy life.
I really tired of all this.
I'm sorry for what I've done for you. Truly sorry.
From my heart. No matter what, i just hope to see you smile back.
When I go to college, i have to hide here and there. I really hate the feelings. feel like crying.
but no one could ever understand the feelings.
I know, all is my fault and all this is my punishment. I willing to accept all this.
Hope one day god will give me the chance to together with you.
i don't know it will take how long.
Now i just you and her be okay.
I just want to say, I myself don't want all this to happen also.
Sorry to you.
Sorry to her.
Sorry to god.
Sorry to everyone.

Hope god will stay with me.
If you see this post, pray for me? even just for a second?

Recently.

Long time didn't update dy.. =)
Recently, many things happened around me.
I fell in love with a girl. :D Good thing huh?
but I will never have a good love life, maybe is my own fault? think so? =)
She is the one can make me do something that I never do for anyone.
The first time. First Valentine, First time sing for a girl in public, First time made a a card for a girl, First time like a girl for so long, First time bought flower for a girl, First time & Many more First time.
I just hope that she will appreciate a bit, even though 0.1% / 100% were do. Enough for me. At least I got the chance to sacrifice for her, make her happy, make her feel comfort.
I can't sleep well for every night, when I close my eyes I see you. I swear.
You really mean a lot to me.
I didn't expect anything from you, I just wish to see you smile and happy. That's enough for me. =)
I love you.

4 Down 1 to go. =D

English okay okay la.
Macro - HAHAH. BAGUI!
Account - Out of my expectation! GOOD!
IT - TOTALLY IS ANG KONG POPI! hahah.

I really sacrifice for this FOUR PAPER!
Almost every paper, I take only 2-3 hours to sleep!
But really worth it. =)
Now left 1 moreee!
Work hard work hard! =D

Sunday!

Woke up at 1 pm. =)
Online from I wake up until late night. haha.
Today like no direction , I suppose have to study but I online whole day! X)
Monday and tuesday gonna study hard dy!
Life still continue! =D

LIFE IS GREAT!

2 down 3 more to go!

English hope to get B+ were do and Macroeconomics A gua? haha.
3 more to go. I will try my very best for this three.
Expect Final Exam Result:
2A , 2A-, 1B+. (at least 3 A , A- and 2 B+)
Honestly, recently those things that I have done I really don't know what for.
Like no direction. In my mind, I just kept on thinking of study study and still study.
Everyone almost got a partner but never be me, why? *questionmark*
Not rich enough?
Don't have a good car?
Don't have a good looking?
Not clever enough?
Maybe? what to do? Nothing. x)

Hope my life would be better! =/
Hope someone can concern about me all the time.

Down. =|

WAH! Tonight! SATURDAY NIGHT!
OOI PENG HOCK IS DAMN DOWN.
HEART PAIN UNTIL..............................
What can I do? Sit there and listen to song and sad.
The feeling is sucks.
WHY? I don't know. I really don't know? you know? can help me?
I know i'm not that good so I didn't expect anything
I just don't know how to describe how I feel, I just feel like giving up everything.

My birthday is coming soon.
I really hope that day I can do the the thing that I want, eat the food that I want and go to the place that I want.
Seriously, if someone beside me now will be better.
My heart just......pain. =|

BACK BACK!

HELLOOOOO!
So sorry that I didn't update my blog.
I always busy with my college stuff and I not really have the time to rest.
NOW! NO MORE test, assignment and quiz!!!!!!
YAY!
Honestly, I really work for every single test, assignment and quiz.
Maybe is not that good but I have tried my best. =)
I used to wake up at 2-3 then study until morning or from 8pm until 7am. HAHA.
Now is time to have some rest and relax a bit then is time for final!
No matter what I will study very very very hard because I know only STUDY only can get a better future and everything.

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Christmas and my birthday is coming soon!
Hope that I will be happy on that two day.
Yesterday(Friday), My lovely classmates celebrate birthday with me and my friend.
Actually is quite touchie and happy. Anyway, thanks to all. =)